i'm about to go in for another appointment. please pray.

coming home...

well, for those of you who didn't get the update...i just got back last night around 7(ish) in the evening. back from where? well, i'm still processing that myself. i just spent a week at the san diego psych clinic. one flew over the cookoo's nest? kinda. and in a lot of ways yes. i still don't really know where to begin except to say: I'm glad i'm not there anymore and i'm still adjusting to the meds. so it turns out i have a chemical imbalance or something like it...which won't surprise anyone, except it totally shook me up. all this to say: i'm okay, and i love you all...but i'm not quite ready to "delve" into all that went down. it was chaotic and weird, mostly like a dream...but now i'm close to my first full day being over, with out any major bumps. thanks for your contiued prayers. please be in prayer especially for my amazing fiance´ justin...he's obviously been turned upside down during this process...my "breakdown" (meh, what else could i possibly call it?) happened just after he proposed. i can't begin to express how amazing he has been during this process, and i know that he'll be okay, because the L_rd will keep him. i just wish things had worked out differently. to quote my darling sister friend stina "what's a girl to do?" welp, i guess i just need to pray that G-d is leading us through this season of change. i know He is, i just worry a bit...so, peace be upon anyone who see this...but thatnks for understanding that right now what i need is a little time to process. i love ya'll. shalom.