4.20.2009

the breeze at lilac.

This last weekend justin and i had the pleasure of house sitting for his parents up in valley center (*1). it was lovely, mostly. we watched the 2 dogs, 1 indoor cat, and 3 outdoor cats (*2). the weekend was great filled with movies like take the money and run; tv shows like inside the actors studio(*3) ; and attempting to figure out mandolin & harmonica tunes. needless to say it was just what we needed. we shut out the world and spent quality time together, and sometimes quality time looks like naps.
  One of my favorite moments was when, while standing outside, i noticed all these fluffy white dust bits being carried in the wind. upon closer inspection i suddenly realized what i was watching flutter and dance past me: wishes. these were all pieces of dandelion (flowers/weeds) forced, by the breeze, through an old world they have never seen before. later with justin, i shared how much that moment touched me. Not just for the child in me, who instantly attempted to catch these little buggers and claim my wish, as they were never specified by the wind. it also caught the attention of the child in me who's hope is to learn more about her Lord. my thought (*4) was this: how great is our God to have the knowledge of (*5)  this soft spring breath that would carry these seeds through the air, dispersing them in various, random places? not only that but, while he may not be concerned with focusing on the specific moment, He does-in his infinite wisdom- know where every single seed will end up. the ones that will take root, those that will falter once they do, and the other who will, one day, add their own seedlings to the passing wind. the beauty of these truths astounds me. He also knows which seeds will be picked by His children and be wished upon, which just conjurs up way too many rabbit trails. to not be connected with nature, and His work in it, suffocates my heart of hearts. i need to be sure to give myself time to be overwhelmed by His creation...especially when the air is full of wishes.
* these will help you read through my thoughts, i've got far too many rabbit trails. 
1 (a cool property on lilac road, where we will be married one day
2 (which there used to be 9 of, it's wild up there)
3 (robin williams episode, where one audience member is hospitalized due to excessive laughter-seriously)
4 (and by "my" i really mean j/k's)
5 (and the boasting rights from creating the beauties and all the intricacies we don't even get to see 
with the naked eye.)

4.14.2009

a mobile update:

setting up my outward expression of my inner monolouge....aka blog